Last night was HORRIBLE!!!!! The nightmares were so real! It was like I had gone back in time and he had me all over again. I laid in my bed gushing sweat like a fountain and could not move. I couldn’t scream or speak and could barely breathe. My heart was pounding like it would explode. And all I could do was lay there and let it happen, just like I had to for so many years. I wasn’t sure if I was dreaming or if
I don’t remember going to sleep and I don’t remember when the episode started or ended. But when it did end, I RAN to Logan’s room and dove onto his bed. He talked me down and we got up, he made me shower, then we sat on the sofa with the tea he had made for us.
This morning when I woke up, I was completely freaked out and exhausted! Logan told me to stay home, he called out, and he spent time tending to me. I don’t deserve a brother like Logan who isn’t repulsed by such a weirded out, screwed up, fucking freaked out sister like I am.